I Will Be A Wonderful Mother

Sorry Ive been busy with the holidays and all. Thought I would share this poem I found and brought tears to my eyes. I am so blessed and in many ways I believe we all are.


I Will Be A Wonderful Mother 

There are women who become mothers without effort, 
without thought, 
without patience or loss, 
and though they are good mothers and love their children, 
I know that I will be better. 

I will be better not because of genetics or money or because I have read more books, 
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. 
I have longed and waited. 
I have cried and prayed. 
I have endured and planned over and over again. 

Like most things in life,
the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. 
I will notice everything about my child. 
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore, and discover. 
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. 
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. 
My dream will be crying for me. 

Surprise!

Hello Darlings!!!

Sorry Ive been missing for such a long time. Theres been so much going on in my life during the last month, its seriously been crazy! So where to begin...hmm...well let me begin by saying...

I AM PREGNANT!

Precisely 12 weeks and 5 days. Theres a tiny miracle growing inside me and we couldnt be more happy! My husband and I found out September 5th after three weeks of driving myself crazy thinking I had the flu. Turns out that the week before I started feeling the dreaded “morning sickness” my in laws and hubby came down with the flu. So what was I to think? 

I was really dreading taking a pregnancy test. I had finally come to peace with the fact that perhaps I would never be able to conceive and taking a pregnancy test felt really insulting to myself because I think of it as a reminder of what I could supposedly NEVER accomplish.